Christina (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} lafemmedesfemme) wrote in ahsu, |
i could've written this post. growing up, really good grades weren't commented on because they were expected. i was given the devil for less than really good grades because i "know better". test grades and standardized tests? check and check. i couldn't tell you the number of times i've told my sister-in-law, "smart? not really. i just retain information better than some people." she's learned to roll her eyes at me-- jokingly. we really do love each other. another wrinkle in it for me, though, is race. a white person tells me i'm smart, and i cringe because i'm always wondering if there's a silent, "for a black girl," in there somewhere. vexing.
